Friday, July 27, 2012

Summer Events: See Where I'll Be:)







August 17-19 at the 2012 International Indie Gathering Film Festival
Clarion Hotel in Hudson, OH
Meet in Greet, Screening, and Awards Ceremony
Awards:  Best Horror Short Script for "Driving Nowhere", Best Horror Short Film for "The Farm," Third Place in Short Documentary Category for "Resolution: A Portrait of Amelia Earhart", Honorable Mention in Horror Feature Category for "Fetish Dolls Die Laughing"
 Screenings:  "The Farm" and "Resolution: A Portrait of Amelia Earhart" 

For more information visit the Indie Gathering Website

August 25 at the Horror Realm Flea Market
Hollywood Theater in Dormont, PA from 10am-2pm 
Music's Underworld Webzine will be covering this event.








We are starting to list fall events too!  Visit the Shows and Appearances Page  

Monday, July 23, 2012

What's to Come on the Second Album

So the first two demos I sent to the drummer for the 2nd album:  A metal song with a Latin/Native American beat and overall vibe titled "City of Gold (Children of the Sun)" based on the legend of El Dorado and the search for it by Spanish Conquistadors.  The other is the ballad "Heart Song" which I did a guitar and voice only version for one of my live living room sessions EPs, but the version on my 2nd album will be a cross between a Scandinavian and 80s metal power ballad.  Yeah, if you thought my first album was "out there" I'm really mixing it up for this one :D

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Late Night Thoughts and One of My Favorite Rush Songs

I've been thinking alot about the sensationalism in the media meat market. Why is it that people don't bother to question what they see and hear? Why do they insist on participating in one witch hunt after another because, well, the mainstream media says so? What's wrong with stepping back and saying "wait, there may be more to this than what we are being told"? Why do people denounce those who actually try to get to the root of problems while accepting the words of a media that tends to embellish more than they fact check and as a result, pit people against eachother? What has Marilyn Manson ever done to you? If you don't like his music, you're likely not going to listen to it so why are you letting it affect your life? Do you even know what the music is about? Or are you just going on sensationalism and media meat market witch hunts? Isn't it time we stopped the madness? Isn't it time we stopped the witch hunts? Really, what is it accomplishing?

"Ignorance and prejudice and fear walk hand in hand."-Rush, "WitchHunt"


Thursday, July 12, 2012

First "Messages from the Labyrinth" Video Newsletter




The first of the video newsletters! Subscribe to my youtube channel for a new one each month among other things:) We will be tweaking them a little each month, so bear with me if this first one is a little rough. The video also features an instrumental of my song, "Ghost" :)

Monday, July 9, 2012

To Those on my Mailing List

I’m going to be starting to do video newsletters at my youtube channel.  I will still use the mailing list to send out things like concert and event notices.  You can subscribe at my YouTube Channel at http://youtube.com/TiffanyApan for the monthly video newsletters.  This will not only save time for me and keep me accountable for keeping my YouTube Channel up to date, but it will cut back on mail/email clutter for everyone else  Thanks for being with us on this ride so far!

Subscribe at my YouTube Channel :)

Four for Four at the International Indie Gathering!

Four for Four at the Indie Gathering??? Yes indeed! In addition to the win for "Driving Nowhere" in the Horror Short Script Category and "The Farm" winning Best Horror Short, "Resolution: A Portrait of Amelia Earhart" won third place in the Short Documentary Category and "Fetish Dolls Die Laughing" won an Honorable Mention in the Horror Feature Category!  I wrote the "Driving Nowhere" script, have music in "The Farm," and act in "Resolution" and "Fetish Dolls."  :)

Check out the Indie Gathering at http://theindiegathering.com/

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Blast From the Past: Dark Xmas Horror Convention, 2007






From 2007!  At the Dark Xmas Film Convention with the Silver Bullet Pictures crew (Mike and Sherrie Hartman).  I have a fun cameo in their heavy metal themed horror film, "Heavy Mental"!  Released by Troma Entertainment:)

See more blasts from the past coming up at my Facebook Page. :)

My 'Love/Hate' Relationship with the Industry and How I Reached a Balance with Everything Part 2

When I was starting out a few years ago, I was one of those girls setting up my first website, beginning to network on some modeling/photography sites, yahoo groups, and the like.  I already had done lots of theater through my life and (I think) two film projects, so I wasn't completely "green" to everything.  Some of my direction was a little off, but I overall had a pretty good idea of who and what I wanted to be and do.  I knew I wanted to incorporate music, acting, writing, and producing into the career, it was just a question of how to go about it and meeting the necessary people that would help point me in the right direction to make it happen.  I wanted to have my own production company and make and produce my own projects while still working with other people.  But of course, probably like most new actresses/models/etc putting themselves out there in the industry, there are leeches, "gwc's" (Guys With Camera), people with adult 'pay sites', webcame sites, self proclaimed filmmakers looking for a bunch of girls to get naked in their films, and the like who immediately are able to smell "fresh meat" on the market.  They tend to prey on the 'new girls' and take advantage of the fact that many girls are, in fact, so desperate to get their foot in the door that they will do anything, things that had they been more established they very likely would not have done.  Many jump right in without a concise goal in mind and if you don't have a goal or basic plan, you will likely fall on your face.

Now, is there anything wrong with adult pay sites, webcam sites, softcore films and the like?  No, there isn't.  But is there something wrong with hounding and trying to pressure and manipulate someone who obviously isn't comfortable with it into doing it despite what that girl's longterm goals are?  Yes, there is something wrong with that.  If you have girls who approach you will to do those types of things?  Ok, fine.  But I do see something wrong with trying to pressure and manipulate someone who wouldn't really be interested.  And yes, I came across quite a few of those and it was definitely an uphill battle.  It was frustrating because I knew what I could do and I wanted to do it.  It was just a question of people giving me a chance to be something other than "the sexy girl."  I even vented my frustrations on the issue and actually had some telling me things like 'you're crazy to turn things down.  Work is work' and 'just take any opportunity that comes to you.'  I will say that I while love some of these people, I wanted to smack them upside the head.  REALLY PEOPLE????  I still shake my head in disbelief when I think about that.  If I had taken their advice?  Sure, I may have been getting more work alot sooner and may still be working today.  But would I be happy?  Would I be able to face family and friends doing the things I was initially offered?  Would I be able to handle getting fanmail where the comments consisted of nothing more than being a piece of meat?  The answers to all those questions was no.

Now, I'm not saying that every choice I made was perfect.  In fact, there were some choices I made that were downright stupid.  Some people I hooked up with were all talk, well-meaning but clueless as to what they were doing, would say one thing but then go do another, etc.  It was tough trying to keep a balance and trying to have people see me for the things I wanted them to see me for.  I remember my first convention/film festival appearances with Troma Entertainment (after being one of their Tromettes on their website...I will say that I do love Troma and what they are about), telling some prospective fans/customers what I was going to be doing and planning to do, that I was setting up my production company, etc and having those same people give me a look that was basically "yeah, ok whatever...you're just a ditzy tromette and nothing more.  Are you naked in anything?"  And then when the answer to that question would be no, they would immediately lose interest.  I remember when I started branching out and doing more films, people STILL wanted to just talk about me as a Tromette in interviews for film websites and such.  And then when I finally began recording and releasing my music?  It was like almost no one wanted to talk about it in their film blogs and websites (or any other film I may have been on for that matter) and seemed to only, once again, want to talk about "Tiffany Apan, the Tromette."  In fact, I remember when I was about to release my album, I had someone get in touch with me for an interview.  I told them that I was getting ready to release my album and if we could maybe talk a little about that.  Well, he pretty much said in a roundabout way that he didn't really want you.  I think that was the last straw for me for a while.  There was that, a couple bad experiences I had on films, the fact that people were attempting to always cast me as the ditzy "sexpot", and the fact that a talk with someone else from the industry telling me that I was pretty much hurting myself career-wise being on the path I was.  Those things together made me step back, reassess things, and had me come to the conclusion that I did need to take a hiatus from the horror scene...at least until I could really get control over things and the direction I was going in.  So I focused on my music, promoting it, and touring for a while.  I did the occasional horror convention, but wasn't sure if I ever really wanted to be involved with it anymore which made me sad because I love horror.  I also refused to take photos that would be deemed "scream queenish".  I didn't want to allow a few bad experiences to taint an entire area of a potential career for me, but it's amazing how people immediately want stereotype and basically just keep you in a box as a piece of meat and the affect it can have on you.

In 2009, was going along with music and contemplating doing theater again (which I hadn't done in years mainly due to touring for the music and such) when I got an email from Travis Bowen of Eerie Frequency Entertainment offering me a role in his film, "The Girl."  I had worked with Travis before on the short "Doll Nazis Must Die" plus doing his Dark Xmas convention and my experiences with him had always been good.  I liked the character he had in mind for me and the concept of the film, so I agreed to do it.  I can honestly say that being on the set of the film and having so much fun reignited the flame and passion I had for the horror genre.  He also offered to use a song or two of mine on the soundtrack which also helped a great deal with me stepping back into the genre without much hesitation.  Say what you will about "The Girl" (love it or hate it), but I credit that film with helping me to get back to something I love but avoided for a year or two due to bad experiences.  After that, I had more filmmakers inquire about including my songs in their films and I've had several different types of films released that I feel shows different ranges as an actress.  I've done a little theater again, I'm getting into producing, directing, writing, and running my award-winning production company.  In 2010, the music video I produced for my adaptation of "Scarborough Fair" off of my debut full length album POET won First Place in the Open Music Video Category at the 2010 International Indie Gathering.  The script for the film "Driving Nowhere" that I wrote (and am also currently producing, directing, and acting in) won Best Short Horror Script at the 2012 Indie Gathering.  My production company works on everything from film, music (my second album and Jason's debut album), the Music's Underworld Webzine, a forthcoming podcast, radio dramas, and I'm currently writing a time travel fantasy/romance novel.

I will say that I've come to a place where I feel comfortable with every aspect of my career both past and present.  I actually don't have a problem anymore with taking "scream queen-themed" photos as those photos are also balanced with other photo themes.  There was also a time when I would cringe at being called a Scream Queen, but it no longer bothers me.  When I interviewed Michelle Shields for my webzine, she said something I agree with: "I'm not a Scream Queen..I'm just an actress who plays one."  I think even people from other areas of the industry are giving me more credibility in recent years.  I remember years ago when I friend tried to get me to be seen to audition for a dark comedy and the director immediately dismissed me saying "well, this isn't a horror movie."  Meaning that he had labeled and stereotyped me as that was all I could do:  run around and scream on camera (which wasn't even what I really did in the horror films I'm in anyway).  Now, if that happens, I can say "um, why don't you visit my website and production company's website before you pass judgement...cause otherwise, I don't need you."  And yes, I'm proud of my time with Troma as I learned alot from them and from that time (both good and bad) and I will talk freely about it.  I always love their dedication to independent film.  Some even tried to excuse the past with "well, you have a darker look."  Once again...REALLY PEOPLE??  Sorry but that's weak as I've seem plenty of girls with the wholesome, apple pie look doing some pretty crazy stuff online...just saying.

Now, some people may still ask me why I didn't just 'go with things' and 'take whatever I was offered' and try to tell me how I could have 'so much more on my IMDb page,' my reply was that it simply didn't match my goals.  I was getting tired of being seen as someone who should just be seen and not heard and you know what?  If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself.  I wasn't happy where things were going, so it was up to me to change it.  Some things I did right, some things ended up being a mere learning experience.  But I think every experience, good and bad, came with a valuable lesson.  I'm ok with everything and where I'm at now and I'm looking forward to new opportunities on the horizon. :)  And yes, I still maintain my "dark look."  :)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

My 'Love/Hate' Relatioship with the Industry and How I Reached a Balance With Everything Part 1

Hey all,

Some late night reflections :)

As I embark on new projects and have passed projects being finished and released, I've been really reflecting on my experience in the industry up until this point (both good and bad).  Late at night is normally when things are quiet enough for me to think on things and come to grips and I have been doing much of that lately.  I think I'm at a point right now where everything is starting to come full circle and things that where once a bother or a nuisance are really no longer an issue.  I'm at a point now where I can start to really feel ok about where I'm at and where things seem to be going.  I'm beginning to see years of work and sacrifice starting to pay off.  I have more confidence now to go ahead with projects I've been wanting to do (eg. writing/directing/producing my own film, writing a novel) and I feel that people are really starting to see me for me and (as cliche as this sounds) take me seriously (yes, that can be a difficult feat for a female in the industry.  And yes, it's been a struggle.  Hard? Yes.  Worth it?  Yes, as well.  I made some smart choices and some not so smart choices.  Some people I've met proved valuable to me and others were more of a hindrance.  But in a way, each and every one of those experiences and people had their value...

More tomorrow on this as I'll be able to think and write more clearly and coherently after sleep:) 

Til tomorrow:)


Ghost Estate, Tiffany Apan, and Bonfire Night August 2nd at Howler's in Pittsburgh, PA

Three awesome musical acts, August 2nd at Howler's in Pittsburgh, PA. Be there! :)

Thursday, July 5, 2012

"Driving Nowhere" Wins Best Horror Short Script at 2012 Indie Gathering Film Festival!

We got the official laurels for the win at the Indie Gathering:) The script was written by yours truly with additional material by Henry Tjernlund and Cameron Cloutier. It is in production starring myself (and I'm crazy since I'm also directing and producing the thing), Heidi Engel, Tyffani Richards, Michael Varrati, and David Dietz.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Who needs fireworks when SyFy gives you a Twilight Zone Nerdfest??? :)
SyFy! I love you and your holiday "Twilight Zone" marathons! :) Love the episodes with Burgess Merideth too:)

Monday, July 2, 2012

Vote for Shad Ireland

Hey everyone,

If you could do a friend of mine (actress/filmmaker, Nicole Kruex) a favor and vote for her friend, Shad Ireland into the Iron Man competition at Kona.  His story is remarkable and inspiring.  It doesn't cost anything nor do you have to set up an account to vote.  You can also vote more than once!

Thanks everyone! :)

Vote at the link below:
Vote for Shad Ireland !

Tiffany

Sunday, July 1, 2012

"Driving Nowhere" Script Wins at 16th Indie Gathering International Film Festival :)

We just received word that the "Driving Nowhere" (which is currently being filmed with myself, Tyffani Richards, Heidi Engel, David Dietz, and Michael Varrati) script won first place at the 2012 Indie Gathering in the Horror Short Script Category! The script was written by yours truly with proofreading and some additional material by Cameron Cloutier and Henry Tjernlund. We will be seeing you there:)

http://theindiegathering.com/page9.php