Check it out tonight at Indiehorror.tv !
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Check it out tonight at Indiehorror.tv !
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
This weekend in Niles, OH is the Halloween Horror Expo! I'll be a guest there plus performing! :) http://halloweenhorrorexpo.com for more info:)
Monday, October 22, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
Felt a little under the weather yesterday, but here are a couple things from some 1980s horror films! Come on, we all love the 80s!
And if you are in the Allison Park, PA area catch me at the Sears Zombie Thon tomorrow!
And a vidcast of Castle Blood is to come soon!
Stay tuned for Day 20!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
and in Allison Park, PA here is were I'll be this Saturday:
Day 16 tomorrow!
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
For my 16th Day of Halloween, here are a couple more photos from conventions and festivals!
Here we are performing at the Friday Night Horror Cabaret at the 2012 Horror Realm Convention in Pittsburgh, PA
And here is a blast from the past! With Mike and Sherrie Hartman of Silver Bullet Pictures at Dark Xmas 2007. I'm in their film, "Heavy Mental" distributed by Troma Entertainment.
See you for Day 17!
Monday, October 15, 2012
Greetings, everyone. I'm catching up on my 31 Days of Halloween and I apologize for the slacking on it. Crazy weekend. But it this one, I catch us up with the book, "Freakshow" by Ted Parker, and the movies, "The Seduction of Dr. Fugazzi," "In the Mouth of Madness," and "The Cemetery Man." We also have a couple malfunctions including amputated batwings. Hope you enjoy and Happy Halloween!
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Episode 19: Tiffany's 31 Days of Halloween Day 11
When the Fifty Shades books began to heat up, I was in the dark in the beginning (yes, a female who really didn't know or care about the Fifty Shades trilogy so many others were swooning and falling all over themselves over). But after hearing it mentioned several times, my curiosity took over and I decided to check out what all the fuss was about. I perused book websites, amazon, and other places like it. I checked out excerpts online and, at the risk of sounding like a literary snob, was not impressed and did not understand why this was such a phenomenon among women. And after reading some other reviews stating that it promotes abuse and Ana is portrayed as being whiny and wimpy in her willingness to let Christian Grey dominate her, I did find it a little disturbing especially for the supposed progressive times we are supposedly living in. In fact, I was a little surprised that some feminist groups were even endorsing this instead of being up in arms about it. I voiced my disgust with such things vowing never to read the books. But I will admit to breaking down and finally reading the first book. I figured that in the end, it's only fair to give things a chance which is what I like to do. And I can't really have a fair assessment on something unless I give it a chance. Don't knock it til you've tried it, right?
So I read the book. It took me nearly a month to finish it. Now mind you, I read Stephen King's "It", a 1000+ page book, cover to cover within a week. So that should speak volumes about what I thought of Fifty Shades. As many critics of the book have said, yes the writing was below the satisfactory level. Excerpts such as the 'inner goddess doing the salsa merengue' actually had me at a loss for words. Someone actually put that in a story...? As for the story itself, it wasn't as Godawful as I anticipated. Ana, the female lead, did get on my nerves and Christian was too 'beautiful' and perfect despite is hinted at past. Whether or not certain parts of the book promotes abuse or not is debatable as I do want to give the author a pass saying that doing so very likely wasn't her intention (but I will say that if a guy I was dating kept stating how he 'wanted to hurt me' I highly doubt I'd be sticking around...but that's just me). Some aspects of their relationship did cause me to "raise and eyebrow" more than a few times. I also still didn't get why people were finding it so revolutionary and shocking. I didn't really think the sex scenes where that far 'out there' and people were really talking those up like they were the greatest things since sliced cheese. Now, I'm not an expert on the BDSM lifetsyle, though I have known people who are into it. And perhaps my being in the entertainment industry and underground subcultures? To be fair, it really does take alot to shock me anymore. But in a way, I can understand how some may view the sexual content in the book as something new and exciting.
Now with that said, I will continue to why I still don't think very highly of the book. I will start that by saying that I don't have issues with the author having success with it. If she was able to create a product and have massive sales with it, good for her. And I really do mean that. It does bother me, though, how it is becoming such a huge part of our culture. Oh, but it's just fluff and entertainment I hear so many say. But is it really?
One of my favorite shows from the 1990s is "Buffy the Vampire Slayer." Buffy has always been one of my favorite female characters. She was tough, strong, could kick anyone's ass but she also had a vulnerable and feminine side too. The characters from the show were quirky enough and had flaws as well as attributes. Moments of prejudice and moments of being openminded. They were HUMAN. Well, most of them at least. Then there was her relationship with Angel. Even when they were at odds with one another (when Angel reverted to his former evil ways for a while), they had that deep rooted, emotional and intellectual connection. It was this connection that made their inablility to be together all the more heartbreaking (yes I actually cried during a couple of the episodes). Now if you got a group of 100 women between the ages of 18 and 45 together and asked them who would they rather be...Ana Steele or Buffy Summers...how many do you think would say Ana and how many would say Buffy (or even know who Buffy is)?
The thing I found horribly lacking in the relationship between Ana and Christian was the lack of emotional and intellectual connection. Ok, we got that Ana was a literary major, but other than a few references to British classics? Well, there really wasn't much there. Nothing, at least, that really made me care about her. In fact, half the time I wanted her to shut up. It got me thinking though that have we as a society, lost the value of an emotional and intellectual connection in our relationships? Has having strong and independent female role models gone down the drain? I've read online about how women are crying because they want that type of a relationship (Christian and Ana). Yes, it's to be entertainment. But is it really when women everywhere seem to be taking it seriously and are claiming to be looking for their own 'Christian Grey'? I mean, I thought it was just a book. And it isn't like a little girl watching a Disney movie wishing she were Sleeping Beauty. These are grown women. Throughout time, entertainment (movies, books, music, television shows, theater) has been known to either be a mirror of the society of it's time, influence it, or both. Hell, look at the Vietnam era of the 1960s. When women everywhere are claiming that a book saved their marriage, it stops being just a book. And while that isn't a bad thing, I'm not sure if it's a good thing, either. I find much entertainment today to be rather materialistic and Fifty Shades is no exception. While I know every era has had it's materialism, it seems to be more prevalent today.
With the writing that I do with my production company and screenplays, my goal is to create both male and female characters who are both tough yet vulnerable. My goal is to create a tension, yet a form of equality between them. This brings me back to Buffy. Buffy and Angel fought each other equally and they loved equally. There were times when Buffy put Angel in his place and vice versa. Because that's how people are supposed to be. We all have our strengths and our weaknesses, our prejudices, our vices, our moments of being thoughtful, our moments of being uppity. In my own novel, I'm creating my two main characters in that fashion. It may not be a popular approach, but it is an approach I feel strongly about and should be taken. Everett (my male lead) is not a wealthy 27 year old billionaire who's too perfect for words save for a hinted at troubled past. He is a 22 year old guy who shares an apartment with his fraternal twin brother, Ron and he's living in 1959. Joanna (my female lead) is a 22 year old from the 21st century who pretty much has her shit together and a sense of direction. As much as a 22 year old can, at least. Both of them have their issues when they meet that are dealt with Joanna having a dark past (among all the other supernatural events occurring in the novel). No one dominates the other and they develop an emotional and intellectual connection and mutual respect for each other. I guess you can say that Everett does sort of follow Joanna for a little bit, but not in a creepy 'I want to hurt you' way. I was a little influenced by Buffy and Angel (light influence) when writing them, I'll admit. There are some sensitive issues that are touched on along with the supernatural elements. My goal is to make my characters, whether a screenplay or in a novel, as human as possible. No one is perfect, everyone has their faults and virtues. It may not be a popular approach, but it's an approach I want to take.
Hey, I've read my share of 'smut' (VC Andrews, bring it on) and yes there will be sexual content in my novel. But that will only be a small ingredient of the book. And I'm not saying my writing will be perfect, but I want to tell a story as opposed to just shock people. Plus, Everett isn't a billionaire and he can't get Joanna a mac and blackberry, since he's also from the year 1959 and has no idea what those things are anyway (black rotary phone, boys and girls). And Joanna actually isn't worried about those things anyway. She has her own cell phone and laptop. She pays for her own cell phone and her laptop was given to her by her mom and stepdad when she went to college. In other words, no one has it easy.
Sure it's supposed to be entertainment. But what do they say? Art imitates life...
My ebay store and my regular store are temporarily closed until the end of Halloween. I am a little bummed about doing this because I would have loved to have had some cool deals for the Halloween season. But, with a hectic schedule between filming, events, among other things, I cannot guarantee getting to the post office on a regular basis to ship things in a timely fashion.
Also, I'm DANGEROUSLY low on copies of my album, "Poet" and I need to stretch what I have as much as possible to get me through these last few October events. I have to get a new pressing company because the one I was using was bought out and they don't seem to be pressing CDs anymore. And that is something I'd rather do over the holidays/winter when I'm taking a break from events and shows. You can still download the album at iTunes, Amazon, and other digital retailers. You can also get physical copies at distributors: CDBaby, Nimbit Music, and Amazon.
After Halloween, I'll have a Holiday/End of year 'cleaning out the closet' sale going on at both my ebay store and regular store. Meaning all the merch I still have left after the Halloween events will be available at a marked down price as I'm planning for a new store in the new year.
Welp, that's all on that end. Check out my October dates and stay tuned for my eleventh day of Halloween! :)
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
-This weekend from Oct 12-14 we will be in Erie, PA at the Eerie Horror Film Festival. We will be representing the production company (Poets Labyrinth Productions) and promoting the music, some films we've been involved with, and of course the film, "Driving Nowhere." If you will be in the Erie, PA area this weekend, stop by and say hi!
Eerie Horror Film Festival for more info.
- But if you won't be in the Eerie, PA area but will be in the Cleveland, OH area and want something to do, check out the world premiere/midnight screening of the film, "Dying 2 Meet U" directed by B. R. Tatalovic. The film is premiering at the Cedar Lee Theater in Cleveland, OH on Saturday, October 13. Two songs of mine are featured in the film: "Lost Little Girl" and "Warrior."
Visit the Dying 2 Meet U Event Page and the Dying 2 Meet U Movie Site.
- On October 20, I'll be a special guest along with "Dawn of the Dead"'s Nick Tallo at the Sears Zombie Thon at the Sears Appliance and Hardware store at 4706 William Flynn Highway in Allison Park, PA 15101. There will be food and Halloween fun. Plus, come hang out with Nick Tallo and I!
- And if you'll be in the Philadelphia, PA area from October 18-20, check out the Silver Springs Films movie, "Devilution" which is having it's world premiere at the Terror Film Festival! Two songs of mine are featured in the movie: "Ghost" and "Warrior." The movie is also up for six Claw Awards at the festival! Silver Springs films is also helping us with "Driving Nowhere."
Visit the Terror Film Festival Website for more info.
- On October 27 and 28, we'll be in Niles, OH at the Halloween Horror Expo. We'll be guests there as well as musical performers so don't miss it:)
Visit Halloween Horror Expo Website for more info!
- And on Sunday evening at 9:30pm, I'll be interviewed on Fear the Dead Radio! More info coming soon.
And instead of a photo this time, I'm doing some more shameless self promotion and posting the first theatrical teaser trailer for "Driving Nowhere."
Stay tuned for Day 11...
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Please visit this awesome website, Poe Forevermore and check out more info and fun things about Poe along with the Edgar Allan Poe House and Museum.
And for the picture of the day, here is a picture of me at Horror Realm in September with an awesome fan and friend, Michael.
Stay tuned for Day 10...
Monday, October 8, 2012
To find out more visit the website, http://demonhouse.com
Episode 18: Tiffany's 31 Days of Halloween Calendar Day 8
And here is a photo taken at Horror Realm in September of 2012 with Art Ettinger, the editor-in-chief at Ultra Violent Magazine.
Stay tuned for Day 9...
Sunday, October 7, 2012
On the sixth day of Halloween, I give a quick rundown on the 1987 movie "Blood Diner" as I am on my way out to a haunted attraction!
And here is a photo of me taken with the 'Trio of Terror' at Horror Hotel this passed May! Check them out at http://trioofterror.com .
Day 7 coming soon...
Friday, October 5, 2012
On the fifth day of the Halloween season, I give a rundown on the indie film, "Indemnity: Rage of a Jealous Vampire" produced by zDiet3 Productions and currently distributed by World Wide Multi Media. For more information on the film, visit http://dietzthethird.com/ActorSite/z-Diet-3/Indemnity/id_home.html and you can also rent or buy from Amazon.
And here is a photo of me with "Dawn of the Dead"'s Ken Foree at Horror Realm in September 2012!
Stay tuned for Day 6...
Thursday, October 4, 2012
In the fourth installment (and pod/vidcast Episode Lucky 13)of my 31 Days of Halloween Calendar, I take a walk down memory lane taking a look back at teen and young adult horror genre books popular back in the 1980s and 1990s. Books discussed are the Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark Trilogy, R.L. Stine's Fear Street and Horror Point books, and Christopher Pike.
And here is a photo of me with the lovely Rochelle Davis, best known for the role of Sarah in the film, "The Crow." You can also check out her interview in the Music's Underworld Webzine !
Stay tuned for Day 5...
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Check out more at the Midnight Syndicate Website.
And here is another photo from Horror Realm with Camden Toy of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," "Angel," and "The Bay" fame. You can also check out my short video interview with him at Music's Underworld Webzine Interviews .
Stay tuned for Day 4...
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
You can pick up the album and listen to samples at Amazon.
And here is a photo from the 2012 Indie Gathering taken with the awesome people from Ghost Walk Productions. Not only did my "Driving Nowhere" script win Best Horror Short Script, but the first film effort from Ghost Walk won for Best Horror Short Film! The film is a supernatural ghost story (based on actual events) titled "The Farm" and two songs off of my album "Poet" are included on the film's soundtrack.
Check out more at The Farm's Official Website
Stay tuned for Day 3 on my 31 Days of Halloween Calendar..
Monday, October 1, 2012
So onto Day 1. Today as I got some work done, I watched the indie vampire flick "Tainted." This film is part of a 'Triple B Header' DVD distributed by Troma Entertainment. This film definitely has a charm to it. Is it the greatest film ever made? No, it isn't by any means. But made in the mid/late 1990s, there is a bit of nostalgia that comes with it as it harkens back to a time where things like video rental stores were the norm when it came to entertainment instead of a more obscure oddity. It's enough to entertain and comes with two other films on the DVD: "Sucker: The Vampire" and "Rockabilly Vampire."
You can pick up the DVD at the Troma Shop and add it to your Halloween watchlist!
And, here is a photo of me with Doug Bradley (notably of the Hellraiser films) at Horror Realm Convention. One thing I love about being a guest at these things is getting to meet and hang with some awesome people in the industry. A longtime fan of the Hellraiser films, it was an honor to finally meet "Pinhead." Photo is courtesy of Henry Tjernlund.
And check out my Interview at my webzine with "The Crow" actress, Rochelle Davis, whom I also met at Horror Realm. She was also my 'table neighbor'!
Music's Underworld Rochelle Davis Interview
Stay tuned for Day 2 on my 31 Days of Halloween Calendar! Catch it here, at the Music's Underworld Webzine Blog, my Tumblr Page, and the Entertainment's Underworld Podcast!
Friday, September 28, 2012
Just a quick update. Here is some video footage from Horror Realm this passed weekend. Also, check the Music's Underworld Webzine for my short video interviews with Camden Toy, Mink Stole, Jeff Monahan, Mark Tierno, David Madison, and Brian O'Halloran! And we were honored to perform a short set in their Friday Night Horror Cabaret Emceed by the one and only, Ken Foree!
And last but not least, here is another video clip preview of a new song we are rehearsing for my second full length album. The song titled "City of Gold (Children of the Sun)" and we are rehearsing with drummer Jim Pushkar and guitarist, Jason English. It was the first rehearsal so it was a little rough, but you get an idea of what's to come :)
That's it for now. Photos from Horror Realm coming soon :)
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Here is a little of what's going on with us at Horror Realm this weekend where I and other awesome people are guests!
Friday the 21st- At 4pm, a film I'm in titled "Fetish Dolls Die Laughing" will be screened
At 10:30pm the Horror Cabaret begins and we are the second act performing a short set
Sat the 22nd & Sunday the 23rd- I will be at my table all weekend along with doing some video interviews for my webzine. Also, the trailer for "Driving Nowhere" will play at some point.
Check out more of the festivities at the Horror Realm Website and come meet me, Michael Varrati, Doug Bradley, Amy Lynn Best, Mark Tierno, Kyra Schon, Brian O'Halloran, and other awesome people in the industry!
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
We will be performing a short set in the Horror Cabaret on September 21 starting at 10:30pm. We are also helping sponsor Eljays Used Books Read-A-Thon! Click for more info: http://www.eljaysbooks.blogspot.com/
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Congratulations to the folks at Sliver Springs Films and the cast and crew of "Devilution" for the film making it into the Terror Film Festival in Philedelphia, PA! I'm happy to have my songs, "Warrior" and "Ghost" appear in the film! :)
Monday, September 10, 2012
Filling you in on what's going on with us this month! Making cameos are Travis Bowen and "Zombie Joe" Mohn (of Eerie Frequency Entertainment and one of my films,"The Girl"), Jim Pushkar, Jason English, and some of the cast and crew of "Driving Nowhere"!
Subscribe to my YouTube Channel too:) http://youtube.com/TiffanyApan
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
I'll be having a couple radio interviews coming up with Haunted Path Live and Fear the Dead Radio at the end of September and beginning of October! More details will come soon.
Oh, and it looks like I'll be having a little cameo part in Silver Springs Films' "The Residual"! More info coming soon and there is alot more to come.
Also, check out my webzine and my new podcast (including my new interview with "The Girl" castmate, Robert Z'Dar held at the Indie Gathering International Film Festival).
That's all for now,
Friday, August 31, 2012
Here is some footage from the theatrical premiere of the Ghost Walk Productions film, "The Farm." Enjoy! :)
On August 25, 2012 the award winning film (put out by Ghost Walk Productions), "The Farm" had it's theatrical premiere screening at the Cedar Lee Theater in Cleveland, OH. Two songs featured on my first full length album, "Poet" are featured in the film: "Ghost" and "Black Forest." The film is currently being screened at film festivals across the US (most recently accepted into the Late Night Film Festival) and won Best Horror Short Film at the 2012 Indie Gathering International Film Festival. For more information on "The Farm" visit http://thefarmfilm.com
My album "Poet" is available at CDBaby, iTunes, Amazon, and other retailers.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Crown Plaza Hotel in Pittsburgh, PA
Performing a musical set in the Horror Cabaret on Friday the 21 and I'll be a guest all weekend! For more info, visit The Horror Realm Website.
October 12-14: Eerie Horror Film Festival
Warner Theater in Eerie, PA
Stop by my table and say hi (and pick up a piece of merch or two) :) For more info, visit Eerie Horror Film Festival Website
October 27-28: Halloween Horror Expo
Eastwood Expo Center in Niles, OH
Performing a musical set on Saturday the 27 and I'll be a guest here all weekend! For more info, visit Halloween Horror Expo Website
Friday, July 27, 2012
August 17-19 at the 2012 International Indie Gathering Film Festival
Clarion Hotel in Hudson, OH
Meet in Greet, Screening, and Awards Ceremony
Awards: Best Horror Short Script for "Driving Nowhere", Best Horror Short Film for "The Farm," Third Place in Short Documentary Category for "Resolution: A Portrait of Amelia Earhart", Honorable Mention in Horror Feature Category for "Fetish Dolls Die Laughing"
Screenings: "The Farm" and "Resolution: A Portrait of Amelia Earhart"
For more information visit the Indie Gathering Website
August 25 at the Horror Realm Flea Market
Hollywood Theater in Dormont, PA from 10am-2pm
Music's Underworld Webzine will be covering this event.
We are starting to list fall events too! Visit the Shows and Appearances Page
Monday, July 23, 2012
Sunday, July 22, 2012
"Ignorance and prejudice and fear walk hand in hand."-Rush, "WitchHunt"
Thursday, July 12, 2012
The first of the video newsletters! Subscribe to my youtube channel for a new one each month among other things:) We will be tweaking them a little each month, so bear with me if this first one is a little rough. The video also features an instrumental of my song, "Ghost" :)
Monday, July 9, 2012
Subscribe at my YouTube Channel :)
Check out the Indie Gathering at http://theindiegathering.com/
Sunday, July 8, 2012
From 2007! At the Dark Xmas Film Convention with the Silver Bullet Pictures crew (Mike and Sherrie Hartman). I have a fun cameo in their heavy metal themed horror film, "Heavy Mental"! Released by Troma Entertainment:)
See more blasts from the past coming up at my Facebook Page. :)
Now, is there anything wrong with adult pay sites, webcam sites, softcore films and the like? No, there isn't. But is there something wrong with hounding and trying to pressure and manipulate someone who obviously isn't comfortable with it into doing it despite what that girl's longterm goals are? Yes, there is something wrong with that. If you have girls who approach you will to do those types of things? Ok, fine. But I do see something wrong with trying to pressure and manipulate someone who wouldn't really be interested. And yes, I came across quite a few of those and it was definitely an uphill battle. It was frustrating because I knew what I could do and I wanted to do it. It was just a question of people giving me a chance to be something other than "the sexy girl." I even vented my frustrations on the issue and actually had some telling me things like 'you're crazy to turn things down. Work is work' and 'just take any opportunity that comes to you.' I will say that I while love some of these people, I wanted to smack them upside the head. REALLY PEOPLE???? I still shake my head in disbelief when I think about that. If I had taken their advice? Sure, I may have been getting more work alot sooner and may still be working today. But would I be happy? Would I be able to face family and friends doing the things I was initially offered? Would I be able to handle getting fanmail where the comments consisted of nothing more than being a piece of meat? The answers to all those questions was no.
Now, I'm not saying that every choice I made was perfect. In fact, there were some choices I made that were downright stupid. Some people I hooked up with were all talk, well-meaning but clueless as to what they were doing, would say one thing but then go do another, etc. It was tough trying to keep a balance and trying to have people see me for the things I wanted them to see me for. I remember my first convention/film festival appearances with Troma Entertainment (after being one of their Tromettes on their website...I will say that I do love Troma and what they are about), telling some prospective fans/customers what I was going to be doing and planning to do, that I was setting up my production company, etc and having those same people give me a look that was basically "yeah, ok whatever...you're just a ditzy tromette and nothing more. Are you naked in anything?" And then when the answer to that question would be no, they would immediately lose interest. I remember when I started branching out and doing more films, people STILL wanted to just talk about me as a Tromette in interviews for film websites and such. And then when I finally began recording and releasing my music? It was like almost no one wanted to talk about it in their film blogs and websites (or any other film I may have been on for that matter) and seemed to only, once again, want to talk about "Tiffany Apan, the Tromette." In fact, I remember when I was about to release my album, I had someone get in touch with me for an interview. I told them that I was getting ready to release my album and if we could maybe talk a little about that. Well, he pretty much said in a roundabout way that he didn't really want you. I think that was the last straw for me for a while. There was that, a couple bad experiences I had on films, the fact that people were attempting to always cast me as the ditzy "sexpot", and the fact that a talk with someone else from the industry telling me that I was pretty much hurting myself career-wise being on the path I was. Those things together made me step back, reassess things, and had me come to the conclusion that I did need to take a hiatus from the horror scene...at least until I could really get control over things and the direction I was going in. So I focused on my music, promoting it, and touring for a while. I did the occasional horror convention, but wasn't sure if I ever really wanted to be involved with it anymore which made me sad because I love horror. I also refused to take photos that would be deemed "scream queenish". I didn't want to allow a few bad experiences to taint an entire area of a potential career for me, but it's amazing how people immediately want stereotype and basically just keep you in a box as a piece of meat and the affect it can have on you.
In 2009, was going along with music and contemplating doing theater again (which I hadn't done in years mainly due to touring for the music and such) when I got an email from Travis Bowen of Eerie Frequency Entertainment offering me a role in his film, "The Girl." I had worked with Travis before on the short "Doll Nazis Must Die" plus doing his Dark Xmas convention and my experiences with him had always been good. I liked the character he had in mind for me and the concept of the film, so I agreed to do it. I can honestly say that being on the set of the film and having so much fun reignited the flame and passion I had for the horror genre. He also offered to use a song or two of mine on the soundtrack which also helped a great deal with me stepping back into the genre without much hesitation. Say what you will about "The Girl" (love it or hate it), but I credit that film with helping me to get back to something I love but avoided for a year or two due to bad experiences. After that, I had more filmmakers inquire about including my songs in their films and I've had several different types of films released that I feel shows different ranges as an actress. I've done a little theater again, I'm getting into producing, directing, writing, and running my award-winning production company. In 2010, the music video I produced for my adaptation of "Scarborough Fair" off of my debut full length album POET won First Place in the Open Music Video Category at the 2010 International Indie Gathering. The script for the film "Driving Nowhere" that I wrote (and am also currently producing, directing, and acting in) won Best Short Horror Script at the 2012 Indie Gathering. My production company works on everything from film, music (my second album and Jason's debut album), the Music's Underworld Webzine, a forthcoming podcast, radio dramas, and I'm currently writing a time travel fantasy/romance novel.
I will say that I've come to a place where I feel comfortable with every aspect of my career both past and present. I actually don't have a problem anymore with taking "scream queen-themed" photos as those photos are also balanced with other photo themes. There was also a time when I would cringe at being called a Scream Queen, but it no longer bothers me. When I interviewed Michelle Shields for my webzine, she said something I agree with: "I'm not a Scream Queen..I'm just an actress who plays one." I think even people from other areas of the industry are giving me more credibility in recent years. I remember years ago when I friend tried to get me to be seen to audition for a dark comedy and the director immediately dismissed me saying "well, this isn't a horror movie." Meaning that he had labeled and stereotyped me as that was all I could do: run around and scream on camera (which wasn't even what I really did in the horror films I'm in anyway). Now, if that happens, I can say "um, why don't you visit my website and production company's website before you pass judgement...cause otherwise, I don't need you." And yes, I'm proud of my time with Troma as I learned alot from them and from that time (both good and bad) and I will talk freely about it. I always love their dedication to independent film. Some even tried to excuse the past with "well, you have a darker look." Once again...REALLY PEOPLE?? Sorry but that's weak as I've seem plenty of girls with the wholesome, apple pie look doing some pretty crazy stuff online...just saying.
Now, some people may still ask me why I didn't just 'go with things' and 'take whatever I was offered' and try to tell me how I could have 'so much more on my IMDb page,' my reply was that it simply didn't match my goals. I was getting tired of being seen as someone who should just be seen and not heard and you know what? If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself. I wasn't happy where things were going, so it was up to me to change it. Some things I did right, some things ended up being a mere learning experience. But I think every experience, good and bad, came with a valuable lesson. I'm ok with everything and where I'm at now and I'm looking forward to new opportunities on the horizon. :) And yes, I still maintain my "dark look." :)
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Some late night reflections :)
As I embark on new projects and have passed projects being finished and released, I've been really reflecting on my experience in the industry up until this point (both good and bad). Late at night is normally when things are quiet enough for me to think on things and come to grips and I have been doing much of that lately. I think I'm at a point right now where everything is starting to come full circle and things that where once a bother or a nuisance are really no longer an issue. I'm at a point now where I can start to really feel ok about where I'm at and where things seem to be going. I'm beginning to see years of work and sacrifice starting to pay off. I have more confidence now to go ahead with projects I've been wanting to do (eg. writing/directing/producing my own film, writing a novel) and I feel that people are really starting to see me for me and (as cliche as this sounds) take me seriously (yes, that can be a difficult feat for a female in the industry. And yes, it's been a struggle. Hard? Yes. Worth it? Yes, as well. I made some smart choices and some not so smart choices. Some people I've met proved valuable to me and others were more of a hindrance. But in a way, each and every one of those experiences and people had their value...
More tomorrow on this as I'll be able to think and write more clearly and coherently after sleep:)
Three awesome musical acts, August 2nd at Howler's in Pittsburgh, PA. Be there! :)
Thursday, July 5, 2012
We got the official laurels for the win at the Indie Gathering:) The script was written by yours truly with additional material by Henry Tjernlund and Cameron Cloutier. It is in production starring myself (and I'm crazy since I'm also directing and producing the thing), Heidi Engel, Tyffani Richards, Michael Varrati, and David Dietz.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
If you could do a friend of mine (actress/filmmaker, Nicole Kruex) a favor and vote for her friend, Shad Ireland into the Iron Man competition at Kona. His story is remarkable and inspiring. It doesn't cost anything nor do you have to set up an account to vote. You can also vote more than once!
Thanks everyone! :)
Vote at the link below:
Vote for Shad Ireland !
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Meaning I don't go to doctors (save for something like broken bones) and don't intend to start. I've taken care of 99% of ailments on my own for the last almost decade and I'm fine. More fine than I was when I was going to doctors. In fact, I had a couple experiences that where almost downright debilitating and I have no intention of going back to that. I admit that I'm still learning about the ruling and what it all means for people like me, but I'll be damned if I'm going to give up something that has helped me for years instead of going to something that probably could have either killed or handicapped me a long time ago. This isn't necessarily a bitch about me having to 'pay for other people,' it's more of a what happens to our choices...
If anyone has any thoughts or knows what it would mean? I'm open to hearing.
Music's Underworld Webzine
Monday, June 25, 2012
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
This indiegogo campaign has nothing to do with me or my projects, but it is something I feel is very important. I'm not sure of how many people are aware of the video that contains a bunch of piece of shit (IMHO) middle school kids brutally harassing a 68 year old bus monitor named Karen Klein. From what I can tell, the campaign is legit and it is to help send her on a vacation or do what she (Karen) wants with the money raised. A kind gesture for a human being who seems to give so much yet take alot of abuse. No one with that kind of a heart deserves that. Karen is a human being. She has a family, friends, and feelings and unfortunatly we live in a society where parents would rather bribe their children than actually BE PARENTS. We live in a world where pretentious, self entitled parents breed pretentious, self-entitled kids. I highly doubt these kids will see consequences for their actions, but we can show Karen support. The video is disgusting if you can even stomach watching it (I actually cried watching part of it). So to those considering procreating: how about parenting your child, teaching them respect for others. And if you can't handle that? Well then it's simple...do the rest of the world a favor and don't have kids.
Well, good news and bad news. The bad news is that due to events out of our control, we had to cancel our appearance at the Ghost Excavation Congress and Convention in Brunswick, MD this weekend :( We do hope to make it out there in the near future and/or next year's event. But you should still swing by and check out the event. Info is at http://ghostexcavation.com
I should still be a good time:)
But the good news is that we have a couple more shows added and are in the process of booking two more. The shows added are Chuck Owston's 70th Birthday Concert at the Bryn Mawr Church of Christ in White Oak, PA on July 29 (where I will be performing acoustically with Chuck and a few other musicians) and Eerie Horror Film Festival at the Warner Theater in Erie, PA on October 11-14. That will most likely be a meet n greet appearance, but more info will be given in the coming months.
The widget below offers more details of forthcoming concerts and appearances. Hope to see you guys soon! Stay tuned for a couple more shows to be announced:)
Also check out a new interview I conducted with filmmaker, Scott Goldberg at the Interview section at my webzine, Music's Underworld :)
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
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Monday, June 18, 2012
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Monday, June 11, 2012
A big congratulations to Indie Gathering founder, friend to indie filmmakers everywhere, and stunt coordinator for many projects (including "Driving Nowhere"), Ray Szuch :) He won three Emmys for his work on NBC's "Crime Stoppers: Case Files."
Sunday, June 10, 2012
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Sunday, June 3, 2012
Goofing on the "Driving Nowhere" set with Michael Varrati. Plenty more behind the scenes photos from today's shoot coming soon courtesy of Jeff Stoll and Eric:)
Thanks to Sadie Rene's for allowing us to film at their awesome venue!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Friday, June 1, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
It's been a while since I've actually blogged and there are a couple things that have been on my mind lately. Like many out there, I use social networks not only as a platform to promote my work and stay in touch with friends, colleagues, and fans but also as a way of expressing myself and letting people know what I'm about (eg. interests in music, entertainment, fashion sense or lack of fashion sense, etc). I don't make apologies about being who I am and people are free to read or not read what I have to say. I won't argue that my personal beliefs and opinions on things are probably different from most out there and that some will have a problem with/be offended by something that I say and do from time to time.
With that said, I do try to pick and choose when and how I post a viewpoint as I don't want to be a page filled with nothing but doom and gloom. Cause that's no fun. BUT, there are some things that do get my blood to the boiling point. Things that pose the question of what kind of a human being would I be if I DIDN'T say something and remained silent. And something that really gets my blood boiling is seeing someone who isn't, in one way or another, part of the "cool kids club" getting trampled on. Examples of this would be Hollywood/major record label conglomerates constantly trying to take out the independents and our means for getting our work out there for their own selfish and greedy reasons, politicians making laws that benefit themselves while trampling on the rights of the common people, private farmers losing their businesses/farms to the likes of Monsanto, cookie-cutter suburbia wanting to "make and example out of" the kids in black who listen to heavy metal so they accuse them of a horrific crime despite the extreme lack of evidence (which is exactly what happened to the West Memphis 3) while trying to scare their own kids into growing up to be those same cookie-cutter "fine upstanding citizens," and well I'm sure you get the point by now. I think that and hypocrisy are the two things that will make me go off on a rant and here's why:
One thing I do and always will make a crusade for is the independent artist, the rental stores, the movie theaters, and even services now like Netfilx (as they allow the independent artist yet another outlet to show their work). I make a crusade for freedom of self and artistic expression and being free of some studio giant trying to run things for you as the you the artist gets screwed and they prosper. I make a crusade for the artist to retain the rights to their work and to present it as they want and to be the ones to prosper from the work's success, whatever that prosperity may be. I believe that people should not be persecuted for their life choices (so long as those life choices don't hurt, violate, endanger, or infringe upon the rights and lives of others). In that, I believe in "live and let live." I think private farms should be left alone and it should be a person's choice of what they consume. Being someone who is in the indie entertainment world, I get to see alot first hand of how those who are not at the cool kids table are (metaphorically speaking) getting shoved into lockers and given swirlies by the bullies and cool kids (really, it's like high school all over again for many). It also gives me an awareness of how so many are unaware of what really goes on. How many don't pull the curtain back and look beyond what the corporate media feeds them. How many just accept things as the written gospel because their favorite politician, Hollywood actor, major label artist, or mainstream news source says it? When I'm in a world/industry where I see what goes on behind all the glitz and glamour, where I see the little guy getting screwed so the conglomerate giant can protect their own interests. When I see this because I chose to look beyond the matrix we are given to mask what really goes on? How can I just remain silent? How can I just sit by and watch people get screwed when all they are trying to do is live their lives? People may not want to hear what I and others have to say in order to protect their perception of reality. And that's ok. Feel free to tune me out and replace my words with the gibberish used to mask the adult's voices in the Charlie Brown cartoons. But I am going to say what I have to say to those who wish to listen. And if you feel I'm somehow misinformed on something or disagree? Feel free to speak up. I have no problem with healthy debate as I feel that through debate, one can often learn to see a view from another angle and maybe even learn more about their own viewpoint. And I won't get mad if I'm proven wrong at something. I'm always up for encouraging others to think outside the box, question things, and make the effort to look for answers and step away from the superficial side of things so what kind of a hypocrite would I be if I didn't want to hear anyone's views but my own. I'm not trying to swallow "the blue pill" here...
Take a look at the articles that really got me thinking about posting this blog entry:
Film School Rejects: 6 Things the Film Industry Doesn't Want You To Know About
Cracked.com's 5 Hollywood Secrets That Explain Why So Many Movies Suck